Cascading Out

A step into light, then back to dark
Nothing much left to kindle a spark
Floating on hope; torn like the tide
Bracing myself for the beating of time

Another day; another weight
Another question of my fate
More uncertainty and more of the same
With nothing of reason and nothing to blame…

Suffocating nothingness, a barrage of emotions
Cascades of everything get out of proportion
Too much to accept; and more comes to pass
All that is hope slips from my grasp

Another day that I die some more
Left more broken then before
More uncertainty and more of the same
With nothing of reason and nothing to blame…

My soul is trapped in a crumbling shell
I must have been born to be put in this cell
The past has been teacher; the rest is unknown
Softness and light become nothing but stone

Another day that I die some more
Left more broken then before
Another day; another weight
Another question of my fate
More uncertainty and more of the same
With nothing of reason and nothing to blame
The future I wanted seems laughable now
The terror inside drowns everything out…

by Sandra Hedin