Naked

Don't look at myself naked
My pussy is dry all night
My poetry is emptiness
Never alone, only inside

Get your hands off, now touch me
My words ruin my peace
I hide my consequences
I hide my consciousness

I hold the past responsible
Nightmares of rejection
My self worth and my self esteem
Are based on his erection

I use him as a punching bag
I eat up all the blame
I bottle up my happiness
And let out all the shame

I run away for pitty
I run away from rage
I fear the others' wisdom
Can't fucking turn the page

I push away the real
Running from reality
I run from realizing that
I run away from me

His name is very special
Commitment equals hope
Forgiving all unholiness
Taking down the rope

Trynna be my sanity
Him, trynna be fair
I am a Photoshop illusion
And he is sometimes worth my care

Narcissism
Kill me please
Or please just kill yourself
Self esteem
Pitty the liar
Take the pill yourself

Dawn at two horizons
Watch me pick flowers as a kid
I used to live in paradise
Now it's a big pile of shit

Forgive the empty girl
Filled with images of herself
Forget forget the guilty girl
She'll never love herself

by Aneka Brunssen